Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal Thoughts
by: Chilli Chillz

What if I told you I wanted to die, it wouldn't be a lie cause I've thought about death
Or what If I tried to commit suicide, cause of all the problems in my life that I've met
What have I learned about life up to now, and can you tell me why my life’s so important
With death all around me why not just give in, cause every evil thing… this world seems to endorse it
So if right at this moment I was to just quit, taking my life in the blink of an eye
I would just end up another soul lost, not surprised… who’d cry over the day that I die
What is the point of my life, that I may care to have it… please show me a purpose
Is life really worth it… I’m looking to know, I’m dying inside but I’m calm on the surface
Through suicidal thoughts and mental depression, God’s shown me a way and taught me a lesson
My purpose for life is no longer my own, its for doing his will and being a blessing
Now when I suffer I’m no longer concerned, death will have its day… but today I must live
In a world that is selfish committed to themselves, I stand alone with a heart that will give
Not living for myself but here for the people, that have nothing left but experience these evils
That make you hurt and contemplate death, in this world we could hope that everyone’s equal
A family that starves and cant buy food, a women that’s been mistreated by men that abuse
A child in a orphanage that’s never been adopted, a girl cause of her weight has lost all of her confidence
A list way too long to put in a poem, and these people have problems with no type of help
We all have to suffer in some form or another, then get to a point where we’re left to our self
With all the same thoughts thinking about death, every person that’s close is nowhere to be found
Your life is in danger, your mind suicidal, then someone comes when no one else was around
This is the reason that I may continue, because with my life I could save someone else’s
With every path that I cross I may hope, to show them a person that isn't so selfish
So what have I learned about life up to now, we all should live the same life as Christ
He gave his life so that we may live, so why shouldn't I give mine at that price
At one point in my life I thought about dying, I thought about death and looked for a exit
But now with my life I reach out my hand, so suicidal people will know I am present
So you wont be alone and you can feel love, to know that someone really does care
Please take my hand I know how you feel, there’s no need to die I’ll always be there
God has a greater purpose he knows how we feel, so killing myself it wouldn't be right
Suicide is a outlet to get off easy, so I have decided I’m not taking my life

The poem in this case should be very easy to understand, I pretty much had some thoughts about why am I even alive. Not ever to a point where I would actually kill myself but to a point to where I had to question why I was alive. The way this world is and the way people are it amazes me how cruel of a world we live in right now. A world full of hatred, is this really what we have come too? I've realized through all my problems that the only thing that makes me want to be here are the people on this earth. My wife and my kids, some of my family members(not all of them of course) and the people who I don't know. There are people who are in bad situations and have nobody to turn too. These are the people we must live for, I've met people off myspace that are better friends to me then some people I knew my whole life. I've also met people that I've only known for a couple of weeks and have become their closet friend. That should never happen but it does and this is the world that we live. SAD I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you enjoyed the poem and be sure to read the rest of them. If you enjoyed this poem, I'm sure you will love the rest of them. Also be sure to read the blogs that I have written giving advice in different areas to women who may/may not be having guy issues. Make sure you check out my freestyling dance clips as well. Thank you for reading! Chilli Chillz

Conquering Love

Conquering Love

by: Chilli Chillz

What is true love, how do you know that you've felt it

You've falling for a person, and you proly couldn't help it

But its deeper then that, your just scratching the surface

Once you've found true love, you'll see why that its worth it

Love is misunderstood, and its often abused

Its thrown all around, and is often misused

There's a secret to love, that people don't get

When you think that you've falling, you proly only slipped

How can you know love, if your asking this question

If you've been in love, then why haven't you felt it

You give it so freely, but you never receive it

So whenever they say it, you never believe it

You've turned your back on love, like love caused your pain

You've giving up on love, like love is the one to blame

Your only a victim, just another target on a list

We've all heard the words, but does true love really exist

How do you know true love, I think that this will help

I got a couple of tips, that I've experienced myself

Love is caring, and concerned about others

putting yourself second, and putting others before us

See the thing about love, is love will always suffer

People leave all the time, and break up with each other

But that isn't love, cause love doesn't mind waiting

So when there not changing, love knows how to be patient

It is easy to quit, but love will take its time

Cause through love we hope, that it will all be fine

Love conquers all, I hope you believe its true

Cause if you haven't found love, I hope love conquers you

I actually wrote this poem by request, I was speaking to a friend of mine that I met on myspace that wanted me to write a poem about love... so this is what I came up with. The purpose of this poem is to help people identify what love really is about. I talk to so many different girls who fall in love with these guys, but the guys never loved them. Talking from experience here, my wife told me that she was in love before we got married. But then she goes on to tell me that she never had anyone love her the way I do. That then let me know that the love she felt for them couldn't be as strong as what she feels from me. Question.... how can she love them the way she loves me, if she felt they never cared about her? She tells me she loves me, but she also said this to those guys in her past. What was the difference? She gave those guys love, but she never received it back. I gave her love without her having to give me anything in return. I treat her better then I treat myself and that's what love is about. She never knew what real love felt like cause she never experienced someone caring for her as much as I did. Its not about saying the word but using it. Learn how to love its not as easy as people think, but until you feel that same love back.... you'll never really know what love is about. I hope you understand the poem now. Sorry for all this but this problem here really effects me everyday I don't see my daughter. Its my fault and I hope that in the end I can be the father that all kids dream of. I hope you enjoyed the poem and be sure to read the rest of them. If you enjoyed this poem, I'm sure you will love the rest of them. Also be sure to read the blogs that I have written giving advice in different areas to women who may/may not be having guy issues. Make sure you check out my freestyling dance clips as well. Thank you for reading! Chilli Chillz